But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.
2 Corinthians 12:9
I’m fairly certain that I’m being lead into a season of learning that His grace truly is sufficient for me. I sometimes look at everything going on around me and question how its possible for anything to be done. However, even in that I look back on my life and see how faithful God has been and how He has accomplished so much more than I ever thought possible. How His past words have kept me pressing on without growing in despair. My first year of teaching was… well to say that it was “hard” or “difficult” or simply “trying” would be a gentle term to use. Truth is the only reason I pressed on without giving up was because I felt like the Spirit had told me that teaching there would prepare me to go back to Guatemala. It has, in ever moment of being there it has. Now my second year of teaching hasn’t been a breeze either, but I haven’t cried daily like I did last year (in fact it has been rare 
). I’ve learned a lot and it has all been useful things to take with me. I can look at it now and say “The Lord put me there to learn and prepare me.” And yet with as faithful as the Lord has been, it by no means has come without resistance.
When I truly began pursuing conformation with the Lord that going to Guatemala was His call on my life, my sister’s home (where I was living) caught on fire in the middle of the night for no apparent reason and I was forced to house hop for the next month depending solely on those who willingly opened their home to me before we could move back in. It was then that I learned the assurance of salvation was worth more than all the riches of the world and my belongings, though useful, held no lasting value. They are simply things. Even this week the moment after I finished my leaving piece for GCM (which I was very pleased with), the computer I was working on slipped off the table and hit the floor. The verdict on the computer and all the files on it is still out. The leaving piece was one that I felt like captured the beautiful partnership between The Village and Casa de Libertad and how GCM was being used to sent believers overseas, how God has been preparing me for this season for long before I knew it, how Christ has called us to be laborers in the harvest and how Guatemala still needed laborers to preach the gospel and my testimony in a simply yet God honoring way. The last time I read it I was sure that God would use it to bring glory to His name so of course there is resistance to it. Needless to say I was a little heart broken but it was a simple remember that Satan is against the work of the gospel. By staying obedient to teaching, I’ve learned confidence in the Lord when others do not approve or actively dislike me. I’ve learned that obedience is worth more than the desires of my heart, for in reality my desires and my comforts lead me away from the Lord and to my own glory. The desires that the Father has transformed in my heart lead to more of Him and the praise of His glory. Satan hates this. Satan doesn’t want the Father’s name proclaimed, he comes to steal, kill, and destroy. Satan doesn’t want the gospel preached in the States or in Guatemala, he wants men, women, and children to stay in bondage and yet Christ has come to set them free and His power is far greater than the one of this world. Praise Him!
May each passing day bring about a death to myself and a praise of His glorious name.
The Lord has been giving me that verse too! Love it!